Saturday, August 04, 2007

Life.........................

Yesterday someone called me a cribber, it hit me very hard.

Am I a cribber? i tried finding the answer but it evaded me somehow.., just a year back I was this happy go lucky guy who cared about almost nothing ( sometimes grades i guess:-)).

So what is turning me into this crying baby, something external or I was always like that? May be people around me can give a honest answer.But I also realise something is missing. I have definitely become more complaining. I don't get happy at things which sometime back used to make me happy, Most of the time I am lost in some thoughts of mine, making castles in air which get scattered by even the sound of the dropping pin. More and more I try to run away from the truth staring at me, and feel comfortable hiding myself in some dreamworld. But how long can this go like this..i have to sort things out but don't feel the courage to do so.

Their are too many questions and too few answers, too many destinations and few roads , too much pessimism ..............for now.

4 Comments:

Blogger heenad said...

its ok..everyone has their downtimes. and their moments of why-is-this-happening-to-me-and-only-me. and lot of pple go through the "castles in the air" thing.

but after each event that happens or doesnt happen you learn so much about yourself too.
and everyone of us is a cribber to someone else. =)

9:31 PM

 
Blogger Akhand said...

You were never pessimistic at IIFM.. so this is not what you are!! You certainly poked nose everywhere and that means you were very active :), so it is for sure that something is stopping you from being original Alok. find it out, Fuck it and be on ur own.

10:46 PM

 
Blogger Nitin Bagla said...

Hmm...soul searching..???? Exploring yourself...???

Sometime, it is also due to the environment you are working in...

Anyway..take a break...talk to people..remember good old day..

Things will change soon..

Nitin

12:16 AM

 
Blogger Alok said...

@Life of Pi- thanks, I also agree that downtime is their in everybody's life but in my case its staying a bit too long.

@akhand " You certainly poked nose everywhere "- bhai publicly mat le.
Thanks for believing into me.

@Nitin- Thanks, thats why my effort is in changing environment.

4:08 PM

 

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