Justice?????????

Yesterday I read Sanjeev Nanda's prison sentence was reduced to 2 yrs, one complete page was dedicated to Mr Nanda and his tryst with justice . Every one form his family had hailed the decision saying finally justice has been delivered.His sister was thrilled saying this is the best rakhi gift she could have though of. I also share the feelings of his family and fully understand the pain .

But what was amiss was no coverage of the victims, six people who were mowed down by a innocent youth in his speeding BMW. Is this the cost of six lives, six sisters who will never have there brothers to tie rakhi to? Six wives who will never be able to live the dreams they would have thought of... six moms who will never see there sons again. some children who will only see there fathers as a hanging photograph with garland around...But no coverage , no opinion from them .

I have nothing against Mr Nanda, but my heart and my mind aches for the six families whose life changed and will never be the sane again .

Sanjeev Nanda is a Wharton and INSEAD grad, whose family owns several hotels like clarion and Sun &Sand other then a "arms trading" company . He and his father were also arrested in Barak missile scandal in March 2008. The victims where three policemen and three common men. Mr Nanda even said in the court that he felt so guilty that he has even paid compensation to the families of all six

Am just not able to digest, is this the way justice is done. 6 people died in January 1999 , the judgment comes in 2009, giving two yrs imprisonment to Mr Nanda....kuch sahi nahi lagta ye padh kar...


Doosri news aaj padhi, "SC saves "baby" of rape victim. A mentally handicapped girl was raped by security guards in Chandigarh Nari niketan . A NGO filed for the abortion as the girl will not be able to take care of the child , so the HC ruled in favour of abortion but some lawyers filed a petition in SC challenging the HC verdict. Yesterday the SC has ruled in favour of the lawyers, the SC has asked the stae government to provide all security and medical aid to the girl. I again disagree , was the girl not in state security and medical aid when all this happened to her... the doctors appointed by the SC declared that the girl has a mind of 7-9 yr old, is this ok enough. what will happen to the Childs future, why are we playing with a life. will the girls innocent mind and body cope with this trauma and stress.....

Mumbai-Kya Bhoolon Kya Yaad Rakhoon

(I started writing this on April 14th , aaj drafts me dikha socha post kar doon, wanted it to be complete but with my writing abilities this will happen only when pigs will fly, corruption will end and I will have a waist size of 28 again:-)

I landed in Mumbai on June 5th , 2006 i.e. on 6th April I have completed 34 months of stay here in the city of unending dreams. There is a saying well begun is half done but my case was different , I was fleeced by the cab driver who took me to the hotel. He took 5 times the fare and dropped me midway. So it was not the perfect beginning .....

I came to this city all filled with enthu and hopes, I was here to join my first job that too in one of the largest corporate so the air was all filled with excitement . Now as I prepare to move out of this city I try to look back at the time spent here, everything which I will be carrying with me forever and forever......

Being a numbers guy if am to put a number for my stay here i.e give a score to it out of 10 I will give it a 6.5. The score is not for the place but it reflects my stay/experiences with the city which are more correct reflection of my behaviour and mannerism . what will you say to a guy who has gone to Juhu chowpatty once in three years , 5 times to curch gate , seen gateway of India once , had not gone to borivali till date .Three years and one visit to siddhi vinayak and one visit to shirdi (even these two were courtesy friends who pushed me) . So I lived more in a self developed cocoon...

Mumbai as a city is amazing , you don't need to be a suketu mehta to experience this , my guess is that its the only cosmopolitan in India . So many cultures & different ideologies ,sky scrapers to the slums, dabbawala to the share brokers, autowallah to the Ferrari walas, the non existing mithi river to the vast ocean, The uttar bhartiya doodh wala to the dakshin bhartiya hotelier . So many extreme ends existing and working in perfect harmony .

The city has been a great teacher for me , has taught me duniyadaari or at least tried teaching me:-) .

As a normal person with three year stint in Mumbai Should have been nostalgic but as of now am not feeling it, I might as the days near by . I am myself surprised with this numbness . When I took the decision of moving out it took me very little time in making up my mind , people who know me well will find it very hard to believe .. The only pain area are the people I have been associated here , the professional and the personal friendships which were formed and matured during the three years . I am saying this when I have been always labeled as a non peoples person or a un social types ....

I am yet to tell everybody have just shared this with very few people not that it matters to them if I stay here or go to Timbuktu. But as the wise souls say change is the most constant thing - have never understood this statement in spirit, now is the time I guess.

I started writing this on 14th and today is 16th , have already got my marching orders, will be moving sometime next week . When I first thought of writing this piece i thought of writng about my experiences with this tinsel town but the way it has progressed till now is like RGV's sholay i.e. completely without a plot. This is more or less how I feel also confused , am nor sure about the sanity of my decision , professionally its not a wise move I guess. I am already thinking of writing part II of this post after shifting ..

Thinks which I will definitely not like to remember is the maddening crowd on roads irrespective of the day and time . I have also witnessed the two of the most gruesome terror acts- serial train blasts and the recent 26/11 attack , again not very fond memories of these two acts. Paucity of space , you always feel squeezed in home , in office on road and sabse zyada on a local train .

The city as I mentioned earlier is a great teacher, I think the best I have got till date . The people here are amazing , chalte heen rahte hain yaar kabhi rukte heen nahin . Though here for 3 yrs but the lazy ass I am , was not able to explore , mere liye mumbai thee, Bandra, andheri, sion, sad very sad .Another first for me in Mumbai was the 2008 New year party in sports bar , full courtsey to my college juniors , I danced first time in my life that too from 11 to 4 am in the morning:-). Somras aapse kya kya kuch karati hai.....

Mumbai will always be a pert of this uttar bhartiya bhaiya called alok for ever and ever......

Things I hate about myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1.Not admitting to being emotional in sentimental scenes in movies
2.staring at others food plate in off canteens/restaurants
3.saying yes when actually wanting to say no
4.being too much "spirited"
5.being too much self critical
6.snail will be happy if he sees my speed in decision making
7.fussy is a very very small word for me when choosing food
8.being too rigid in opinion and views
9.having zilch financial sense
10.being very bossy with my siblings
11.While traveling in a train check out names for all "F " in the passenger list
12.doling out gyaan
13.being non responsive and non attentive to others gyaan and when others are speaking
14.my paunch and my second chin
15.buying things without any rhyme or reason
16.being too much of dreamer and thinker
17Bird watching ( no if no jatt only butt)
18.formality bug which has recently affected me courtesy some frnds

19.being an lazy ass

20. my emotions show on my face , am not able to hide them
21.end not being a good human being

I could have kept on listing things, the list would have been endless . Kuch baatein mujhe apne baare me achhi bhi lagti hain lekin unme se maine kuch pahle se hi hate list me likh di hain, I am not sure if i hate them or love them :-)

Vivah- Ek Anokha" Bandhan"

In the last 15 days two people I was close to have got hooked for marriage matlab D day has been finalised . when I look at both cases both had a different approach and methodology in reaching this spot but what is strikingly similar is the reaction . Ek bhai hamara bilkul sant , ghar walo ne theek kar diya bande de kudi dekhi, kudi janch gayi sab final, aajkal phone pe lage rahte hain, bandhu ne too aajkal dhirubhai phone bhi kharid liya dedicated for "special purpose". Doosre bandhu stud the cool dude, the achiever with a long list of girls crooning over him. In bhai ne ladki dekhi groom ki ghar walo ko case forward kiya with a strong recommendation and bang the case is closed. Mujhe dono ne daaru pilayi that too single malt isliye my good wishes with both of them..

I am also under tremendous pressure to get married as I am fastly approaching the end of my best buy data and am about to complete the shelf life of bachelorhood. I asked both of them "doston how did you to know that its the time and you were ready to take the plunge" i swear I have never seen a more devilish and wicked smile in my life which came on both their faces when they replied bete sab pata chal jayega...I thought why this fuss about getting married I just tried to think ki kya change aayega..
Marriage will mean:
- planned expenditure, no longer just buying a bino costing 4 k
-no daaru daily, not even bi weekly, shayad week me ek din izazat mil jayegi
- going on shopping to buy matching curtains , doormat bed sheet -eeks
- no night out drinking with the boys
-being more sensitive ( I am yet to figure out what it means)
- savings , insurance and ....

So its not that hard I can do it but still the basic requirement is a girl and since all my 50 + attempts on different girls have been futile i have do it the losers way ghar wale dhoond denge. My sister suggested that we should run a classified add which says Male, short/dark/ unhandsome , insensitive can kill if disturbed and woken up against wish , mere doston ne bhi kahan hai they will suggest any girl "jisko mere jaisa banda chalta hai" . I am yet to decide mentally ki kya main ghar grihasthi ki gaddi chalane ko ready hoon..

So as my parents start the bahu finding mission am yet to come to terms with the reality

Recession- My interpretations!!!!

All papers , financial dailies news channel every self proclaimed analysts have painted the world red with the theories on recession. All are ga ga about How each one of them have so correctly predicted it sometimes back . I think I along with many other "layman" types were not so wise enough to read into thy wise souls..

I bought the story of we being very fundamentally secure and nothing can go wrong and the market is headed to 25-30 k levels (I don't know who these people were can't be same as the ones who predicted the downfall) so I jumped in with all might and the result was similar to "chandni chowk to china".. I invested whatever I have saved in to stocks , MF and the rest is history:-(

Recession and bad times have become the most lovable excuses , the height was when my bai din't turn up yesterday so I asked her the next day . She replied ki "Bahut kharab samay chal raha hai economy me , mujhe bahut tension hai"

My dad checked with me did you save the money for your income tax I said no "Its bad time".

My sis asked why are you almost drinking every other day, I said " Recession hai"

My two subordinates asked - promotion bonus ka kya scene hai I said "Bhaiya recession hai"

My boss said , why are you not working the lazy ass I said boss Recession hai...

Mamohan singh asked the Pak PM ki aap kuch karte kyon nahin to unhone bhi jawab diya recession hai...

Some things where it has helped me a lot is this time dad din't ask me ki tumhari tax savings kyon nahi hui , neither did he ask why am i not repaying my edu loan... My mom has stopped bothering me to get married she is not sure but damn confident ki main ghar grishthi ki gaadi nahi chala sakta.

“Harsh nav, varsh nav, jeevan utkarsh nav”.

With my Birthday approaching, I have mixed emotions.Ideally I should have been happy, logic says birthdays is the time to be happy but am not sure about my feelings. I am trying to give a face & name to my my feelings happy or sad but till now I have been unable to.....

I remember my earlier birthdays very clearly, used to wait for them long in advance. One day when you are treated almost like a king, you feel important . The planning used to start at least a week before, How to celebrate, whom to call, whom not to call, gifts, menu, decoration- every detailing done . I used to drop hints to my parents and my siblings about the gift I expected. I still remember the Kapil dev autographed bat my dad gifted when I was in class 3rd (its another matter that before this I have bugged him for the gift).

So birthday morning were great , mom used to come and wake me up with the sweetest birthday wishes followed by ghar ki junta, then came the pooja path and naye kapde. One day when I didn't hated bathing in the morning , so I generally used to get two sets one for the morning and other for the evening gala. Evening party also was great fun, some games , music and lot of gifts and great food. So overall the experience was good.

Now for the last few birthdays i.e. post my formative years have never been able to understand though with mobiles; calls and sms start to trickle from 12 in the night , then there are a good no of calls , scraps, office me cake phir doston ke saath party. All the ingredients which should idely make one very happy (other than footing the bill) but...


As some of my colleagues pointed out that now I have become old so its the fear of aging which has gripped me which is not allowing me loosen up, a very valid point but I am again not sure. Then with your birthdays one gets contemplative and evaluative about the year gone by . so I do the same and find that its been not a good year professionally and personally, some setbacks , unfinished business and empty bank accounts and with my new friend Lumbar Lordosis its been a low year. What I fear most is slowly I am loosing my Individuality, me as a person five years back and me as a person now are not the same, I have changed , what I feel is I have become comfortably Numb. Is this change normal or not again am not sure..

Again as Dinkar jee says we humans create our own problems ..
रात यों कहने लगा मुझसे गगन का चाँद,
आदमी भी क्या अनोखा जीव होता है!
उलझनें अपनी बनाकर आप ही फँसता,
और फिर बेचैन हो जगता, न सोता है।

So in some days I will be a year older and a degree higher in My numbness..................................

Vigilante Junta Justice

I recently saw Wednesday incidentally the same day of the Delhi blasts and I was impressed by the Instant justice delivered by the protagonist. At that moment I found out to be very fair and just approach..

Two days back a CEO in Noida was beaten to death another example of Vigilante Junta, I have no idea who If the Junta was really aggrieved that day for the right reason- may or may not.But this act can't be approved by anyone. But the shock came from the honourable labour minister who said "This should serve as a warning for the managements. It is my appeal to the managements that the workers should be dealt with compassion," http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/CEO_death_warning_for_managements_Oscar/articleshow/3518772.cms

So If we do believe the CEO was not fair, he was not compassionate so the Junta has the right to beat him to death, fast track justice .Am just guessing what the other company CEO's will be feeling this moment. The news I read about the incident was that the police took 45 minutes after the distress call to reach the site and that two with 4 constables, when the SSP was quizzed about the lightning response from police he said yes we were late and the concerned SHO has been suspended. Now isn't this contrary to what the honourable minister was talking shouldn't this be also have been looked with compassion . The poorly paid police force which dances as per the politico tunes, a toothless clawless, blind tiger is expected to hunt..............

We don't need Vigilante justice even if it seems fair as in wednesday or not fair as in Noida. What we need is a justice delivery team which has powers to act without fearing interference but this from a police force which is seen dragging a tied person from his bike in Bihar or from the police man who rapes a girl in his police chowki in Mumbai or from the police in Delhi who is yet to identify Aarushi's killer or from the Judiciary which is being probed for corruption by CBI at the highest level or the judiciary which took 10 years to decide that nanda was guilty of running down 6 innocent people under his BMW and has not convicted a single person for the different blasts which have happened post 2001 (source CNN IBN). I t doesnt appear that any justice can come from these when the soul criteria for selecting a person becomes his caste or his ability to suck up; a DGP is sacked and send in the cold storage in Punjab the day the regime changes, the most corrupt person as described by his association becomes the head in UP.

Another such incident which caught my eye recently was the honourable state minister of home's statement when he criticises the Intelligence and the police force for not looking beyond SIMI/IM.

What we need is need a reformed police and Judiciary policy something which is stuck for the last 5 yrs, the neta's hate to loose control so they are not letting it go through. Until we have a reformed police and Judiciary we will continue to have Noida's and Aarushis in our life................